Feelings for Sazanka
I ... I want to take care of this girl because Sazanka has a very special place in me.
heart. I still remember that time I was her boyfriend of her lies to face her
that stalker who began to haunt her. I must admit it was a very
fun being her boyfriend, even if it was a fake. Maybe this was the time that
I started to wish that if one day we became real boyfriends, I would love to
that we could enjoy more days like this.
-Joro, I've spent a lot of time with you since the second semester started. Since
that time we became fake boyfriends, as well as when we participated
in the organization of the sports festival. -
-That's how it is. And you know Sazanka, being able to have your company at the festival was a lot of fun already.
that you are the second person who has pampered me that way. -
It was at that festival that Holly and Tsubaki's great holy war broke out.
At that time, she was present to help me and stood by my side to
give me all the support of her. Oh right ... now that I remember, there was a time when
we watched the sunset while in the park. We both stay
seeing that beautiful landscape and that was where she told me that this was another beautiful memory
that she could do with me.
-You know Joro, this place is very important to me because this is where I could
express my feelings to you for the first time. Right here under the cherry tree
that we have in the courtyard of our school. In this place I was very happy when I told you what
that I felt for you. -
“There is no doubt that each of the words that Sazanka said are true and that makes me
very happy. I'm glad that that day she threw all her feelings to my face and that
so direct that only she can do, hehehe ... although I also can't help
to think that next year, there will be a change of seats and he will no longer be at my
left. The truth is that I will miss her if that happens. "
However, even though those things make Sazanka happy, they also make her beautiful.
her smile goes off. When I realized it, a great pain began to run through my chest,
as if a gigantic hand is squeezing my heart. But now, I can't give
going back because today I have already decided that I should say the following words to
Sazanka.
-I'm sorry, Sazanka ... but my feelings haven't changed. -
But if I could change them right now, I wish I could fall in love with
Sazanka and become her boyfriend. But, although I wish to have her beautiful face close to me so that she can contemplate it at all times when she is by my side, I cannot
control what I feel ... ”Why…? Why does this have to happen? "
On the other hand, hearing my words, tears began to flow from the eyes of
Sazanka, with those beautiful eyes that I can't do anything to make them stop crying and
tremble.
-Joro… I'll do my best and do whatever you want! I don't hate you !! I can not
hate you !! The only thing I want…!! It is to be by your side ... -
As she listened to her words, she took me by the uniform and clung to me tightly. Without
However, the only thing I can do is tell him ...
-I… I don't want you to be by my side. -
-Why?! Tell me!! Which is the reason?! -
I am fully aware of how cruel I am being right now and that is
because ... I like you, I like you very much. So, I decided not to answer her question.
-So, what should I do ?! At least tell me! Why did you make me
fall in love with you and now you want to destroy everything between us ?! -
Hearing those words, tears began to flow from my eyes. In that
moment, I felt Sazanka's hand touch my cheek, as she contemplated
my eyes completely red and full of tears.
-Really, Joro! I'm in love with you! Every day, I thought of you! Forever
in you! That's why I always felt happy when I could be around you! -
"Curse…! Why did you have to fall in love with me… ?! I still remember that day
that you sat next to me. I didn't want to like you one bit. After all,
you were overwhelmingly violent. However ... He really wanted to be loved by that
kind part of Sazanka! In the midst of that storm, the tender side of her was the one that
I manage to shake my heart. It was a bad thing to want Sazanka to see me and keep
my side out of selfishness. So I think I am someone really bad. But, to be
frankly, I can't find the words to express these feelings that I have. "
Then I leaned in to see Sazanka's face one more time ... but I don't have the courage
to se her. However, shortly after bowing down, Sazanka yells at me in a low voice.
-Get up! -
Hearing her, I slowly raised my head at the kindness in that voice. With tears
still in her eyes, she tried to smile at me as hard as she could, as she stretched her fist
to gently tap my cheek. That punch was the most painful of all
I've received.
Maybe Sazanka didn't want to see my face, and that's why she leaned against my chest to say ...
-Thank you for making me spend such beautiful moments. Thank you for making me fall in love with
you. Really, thank you ... -
The shudder from Sazanka's body was transmitted to my cheek through her
fist of it. I really want you to hear these words, "I am the one who would like to be
closer to her ”. But I can only manage to tell him ...
-… Do your best, Asaka. I wish you the best. -
Sazanka, who looked wonderfully attractive in my eyes, raised her head and asked me.
He showed a look full of determination.
-Ah, enough! You are annoying! I don't want to see you anymore! So get out of here! -
That is Sazanka, better known as Asaka Mayama, who fills with a certain
feeling of kindness, push my back. I am happy for the kindness that
she shows me, but I also regret this kindness because I know very well what
Means…